20-Something…

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Being Twenty-Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are a lot of things about yourself that you
didn't know and may not like. You start feeling
insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or
two, but then get hot and scared because you barely
know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so
close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have
ever met and the people you have lost touch with are
some of the most important ones. What you do not
realize is that they are realizing that too and are
not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but
that they are as confused as you are.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you
thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking
for one and realizing that you are going to have to
start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the
comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with
the same people on a constant basis.But then you
realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you
want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten
stronger. You see what others are doing and find
yourself judging a bit more than usual because
suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries
in your life and add things to your list of what is
acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then
secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life. You feel alone scared and confused. Suddenly
change is the enemy and you cry and cling on to the
past with dear life but soon realize that the past is
drifting further and further away and there is nothing
to do but stay where you are or move forward. The
stupid ones plateau, the smart ones rise.

You get your heartbroken and wonder how someone you
loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed
and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to
get to know better. You love someone but maybe love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you are
doing this because you are not a bad person. One night
stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and
getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look
pathetic. You go through the same emotions and
questions over and over and talk with your friends
about the same topics because you cannot seem to make
a decision.

You wonder what in the hell is wrong with you! You
worry about loans and money and the future and making
a life for yourself and while winning the race would
be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

We are making a lot of mistakes, but helping one
another learn from them. We will piss one another off,
and laugh at the end of a conversation that started
with angry words. We are a group that talks behind the
backs of the same people we call to meet up with on a
Friday night, but we are sorry about it and we know
that we were just being insecure like they have been.

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this
relates to it and we are all in this together. We are
in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as
hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. We are
friends, and in 10 years we will be friends who have
figured out where we fit-in in this world.